Today was a great day that i spent with my daughter Caitlyn and her Cousin Kira and her nana! It was great to have caitlyn around Derricks side of the family! A great day but long! lol!
Well this afternoon i called my sister Kelsey to talk to her about a few things that i am having a hard time with! I am having a hard time with knowing that caitlyn has to change her title for kelsey and aaron from mommy and daddy to mommy kelsey and daddy aaron! Well Kelsey is my sister at heart but she is MY sister! She does everything for caitlyn and i and so does her hubby! They care soooo much about us that when kelsey is upset about something she will literally get upset ! Well we were arguing about it today and she got sooo upset about it that she wanted to hit a wall!
Well when i hung up with her i realized something!!! it was a bell in my head telling me that no matter what Caitlyn calls them she will always be there little girl! Kelsey and Aaron have had 5 miscarriages sence they have known us and they never that they could have a child and now Kelsey is preggo and due June 9th acouple of days after caitlyns birthday and mine! I need to stop worrying about the past and the future and think of today the day we are in! We dont know when we are going to die!
If anything ever happened to any of us i would regret not having the fun we could have had! I must live for today! Kelsey and Aaron are Caitlyns Godparents and NO one can take that away not even me! I cant be selfish like that! Aaron is the only father figure caitlyn has that is alive! She may say daddy aaron you are my father someday and say i want to call you daddy and i dont care what people think!
I understand that when we are out and about and Caitlyn calls Aaron Daddy and Kelsey Mommy and Me Mama it looks and sounds weird but we are a FAMILY! We are not lesbians or Paligamist! Now no one would know unless i explained why caitlyn says that! Caitlyns daddy Died when she was 16 months old and so she didnt really get to know her father well at all! It was very Special how we met them!
Well i am going to keep praying about this!
Cant wait for Easter week with MY FAMILY and the Babyshower the following weekend!
Mommy Kelsey
Daddy Aaron
Easter 3 years ago
Daddy Derrick who Passed away On Oct.5th 2006
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